10/2/11

I feel like I need to update everyone on my life... I don't know if I just have followers or if they actually listen to what I write but oh well.

I am out of the hospital and i'm currently still in recovery.
I have a new boyfriend who I don't want anything serious with at the moment.
I'm out of school for the semester for a mental health break.
I'm a slight mess at times.

It's the nights that are the hardest. The flashbacks are constantly replaying in my head, leaving me with nightmares. I've woken up crying, screaming, and sometimes even with bruises on me that I can't explain.

I'd like to say i'm getting better. I really would. But, to be honest, I don't know if I am. I feel like i'm just running away from my problems and pushing them in the back of my mind. Maybe that can be a useful coping technique or maybe it will hurt me in the long run..... I don't know..