5/13/10

A love is a bond,
an unconditional promise.
A bless that's bestowed upon us,
leaving our hearts to belong to one another.
A promise that's forever.
that's not a figment of our imagiantions.
That two hearts can grow, live, and prosper,
together,
intertwined by the obstacles that life may provide us with.

Love can be awarded upon us,
when we find the one we want to share our lives with.
The one whom we will share our years, and learn life's worth.
When you say, i love you, it's not a saying, a habit, or words scrambled in a sentence.
It's a promise, a way of life and the thought that occupy's my brain.

I'll tell you a story of a love that grew,
forever it stayed,
and forever it remains true.

Transform [[poem]] 5/11/10

Transformations under the sun,
leaving hopefulness lingering in the heart thats been savoring,
the love thats been crippled by the pain thats injected.
Your voice trickles my skin,
cleansing the sins that's been captured within.
I take a deep breath as I dive in,
to a hell I achieved by the nights of the grief.
The flowers are drifiting,
along the shallow bay,
leaving souls to wander and fade to a dull grey.
Is this correct?
To let them go without a word on the brain,
without a memory scarring their everyday ways?
A past is a memory, a life that's well known.
A life that you may contemplate but that you need to let go.
Start, refresh, rejuvinate.
This life is anew with every breath you take.
Smile my young angel, the voice of light,
shining beams throughout the hardships in life.
Open the door and let the air come through,
let yourself change, feel the power within
and let yourself,
transform.

This [[poem]]

Slowly drifting.
Baby, strike it.
Strike it, hard.
My eyes enclose visions of the past.
Devouring my sense of logic that swarms into my mind.

Sharpen this dull blade, lets make things right.
Young heart held by such lying hands.
A human in awe with an illusion of pure,
perfection.

A girl holding her strength in as words fill her fears.

Scream

When she deciphered the words,

leading to such targedy.

shes not the one, nor will become.

Whats the imperfections which lead blood to run,

against this cold, harsh, air.

Smiles and frowns reminense.

Drifiting and waiting.

You're the main cause,

the only cause.

The cause,

of this death,

of this life,

of this tragedy,

of this.

starting of a poem? possibly

Cause baby, I saw you
on the corner in the pouring rain.
You were screaming,
"love never does fade away."
and honey, those words near saved my life.
And I love you and nothings going to change my mind.

Jump [[poem]]

Young love.
Sprouting from the broken crevices of hell.
I thought i'd never meet someone new,
as perfect as you.
I stated,
over and
over and
over again.

Jump.
I'll jump also.
We can run
away from this state of chaos.
Let black be your center,
your vision.
No fear must reside.

My love,
you are perfection
and perfection, we'll stay.
It's not long, nor tall.
Blood can guide our way
to the place we will transform,
eternally.

we'll see love
capture our deepest emotions
leaving our lives astray.

Breathe.
We'll jump
and forever
we will stay.

I really like this poem type thing. idk why... 1-25-10

I walked outside today
The white snow traveling along it's journey onto the weathered ground
I stood.
I stared.
I peaked over the edge of the building contemplating the importance of life
The positives of death
I stood.
I stared.
My trembling hands lighting the one thing that makes me feel something besides pain
inhale. exhale.
I stare off into the distance believing that love won't come my way again
Thinking love has given me a chance and I managed a way to fuck it all up
I stood.
I stared.
My slow paced step led me back to my house.
The sanctuary for most. A torture chamber for me.
White.
Why is snow white?
Why must you see it so visibly even to the naked eye
It's bright; it shows hope.
Its a lie.
It illuminates the problems us humans don't want to figure out.
It shares it's color with a few from nature
but red.
Red is a color that is rarely known to be visioned with snow
The blood that drips down from my wrist.
It leaves marks. Memories. Hope.
I can't help but think love is not real
That it's a figment of my imagination in which I created in order to help myself through life
Snow deomnstrates that for me.
It illuminates the pain that has come my way and the hope that I have lost from it all
I stood.
I stared.
I cried.
After a while
It's come to known,
everyone must come inside.

Inifinite [[REALLY shitty poem]]

What is death?
A meer consequence of nothingness
A portal-way to a world of endless posssiblities
Inifinite
I want to be Inifinite
Fight off the valleys of death with actions not yet taken
Help?
A quiet attempt to have a hand to hold along the way
Everyone craves another's hand to guide them
A hand to warm their coldest fears
Him.
I know he's my saviour for this conquest I have yet to call my own
My wings are yet to transoform
never ending
I want to be never ending
As long as it's pressed upon your side.

Where are you my love? [[poem]]

Thoughts of you occupy my brain
Sending signals of confusion that radiates my skin
My eyes wander to the point of only what's ahead
Where are you my love?
My heart is yearning for your touch
The soul is crumbling down a tad bit too much
My hands are trembling in this cold, frosted life
The couples, I gaze, I can't stand this fight
Where are you my love?
Take my hand and bring me to anew
Show me that life is not a portal to death
Show me this life is worth breathing my seldom breath's
There's a time when I don't know why i'm here
Who will miss me or the conquer of fear
Be my savior and show me what's right
Breath hope into me, love of my life
where are you my love?
i'm waiting
Where are you my love?
I'm waiting..

old poems that I wrote a while ago

First one- I wrote this in August 2007. I
don't think I actually finished it, haha but now that I look at it, I think it's awful so I don't want to finish it, hah. It has a lot of typos which I also didn't feel like fixing, sorry.

For You
for you i hold the razor close
for you i cry and never hold
for you i see the dark at day
for you i want to fade away

look in the mirror what do you see
a broken soul or a lifeless body
this is what you did
this is what you want me to be
this is what i have
this is whats left of me

you broke my life
you bruised my soul
you killed my life
now you're in control



This second one was written in August 2008. It was to my boyfriend of the time (now ex). We dated for 2 and a half years. It's cheesy but I just adore cheesy stuff :p

perfection was never true
until the day i met you
your eyes locked mine
your eyes so divine

hands met
lips touched
racing hearts
growing love

warm hearted smile
soft gentle touch
cuddle of an angel
i love you so much

love of my life
through every single strife
what can you see
beyond happiness and glee

so lucky to be the one by your side
so lucky to see the love of my life
please never leave
i have to believe
that you will only ever want me

This last one I wrote in December 2006. So, a while ago.. I just found these in my room so I decided to put them up on here.

The bruises cover the body
The pain covers the soul
The memories haunt my movements
I need somewhere to go
The hand is cold and stiff
Watching my every move
The body is left to bruise

Dying alive
Living alone
Left in the darkness
No one is home

Grab this lifeless body
Breathe the sigh of hope
Live in all my weaknesses
Brighten up my soul

Poem :)

I wrote this poem a few months ago about someone. I was in a depression at the time, so it's not the most joyful poem you'll read but I hope you enjoy it.




The knife draws closer to the surface of your skin
It's propelled by the pain that you always hold within
The essence of love is nowhere to be found
The past is the key to your body staying above ground
The memories last by covering your wrists
You just wish your soul could cease to exist
The source of happiness is nothing but a lie
The pain that he's made is to leave you to die
Thewor'ds that you long for lingers in another's eyes
The tears may dry
But the heart still crumbles
You wait for nothing
But a lonley tomorrow
The idea of him has left you nothing but sorrow
Why should you stay if happiness is unattainable
This lonliness has transformed you to nothing
A sign of desctruction and empty bluffing
It's gone
The love that you lack
The love that you crave is not coming back